gruff

So I just cant get over what a freakin hot day it is. And to top it off I dont feel well, so walking outside makes my head feel like its about the size of a grape with a watermelon inside. Sorry...

My sister spent the weekend or I guess just Sunday and Monday, but it was interesting. Having a five year old around makes me really appreciate the fact that I dont have kids. I was so tired after having her at work with me all day yesterday that I went to bed at 9:15, which was good because I got up at 6:15 to take her home. She was so well behaved though, it made me thankful for my aunt who got her out of the horrible situation she was in with her parents.

I was really bothered by one thing though: she went with us when we rescued our dog, so she saw how neglected he was, and yet all day she was following him around hugging him and asking "Do you miss your old family P'Nut?" Its like, even though she knows she was rescued, she still misses her mom and dad, so the dog must too. I can tell you the dog does not miss those people, he was rarely fed and got NO attention from them. Just like my sister, he needed people who made him a priority. She had a visit with my Dad on Sunday and he "helped her" with her homework. I have been angry at him before, but this is just not acceptable, I cant even get angry it is so pathetic. He didn't even make her read the directions, much less follow them. Its Kindergarten... he is nearly 50 years old... its just pathetic.

too many blogs

I cant make interesting facebook notes, mayspace and blogger blogs and be intersting to talk to in person or on the phone. I have a life and I enjoy interacting with people. Making time and conversation through the format is really difficult for me. I have a little bit of bitterness because people expect me to keep up with their blogs etc. when I only really know one person who ever has anything interesting to say (You're welcome R. Brian Fain of Knoxville!)

Please keep understanding that I will post here occasionally, but its just so darn hard to come up with things to say. I am getting all geared up about going back to school and I miss McKay and my peeps, but thats about it.

AHHHH

I log in to blog and they tell me there will be an outage in four minutes....

HURRY HURRY>>>> BE WITTY!!!

Ok guys, Im just not. But this blog is so much better than the myspace ones. GAH I cant stand stupid Myspace and my addiction to it.

Also, I want a lunch break. Unless I leave the office, it doesn't matter how much food I have spread out in front of me, or even if I have a big freaking bite of food IN MY MOUTH, these people look right past it.

I love my job, but this is ridiculous.

Anyway, my mommy is coming to celebrate her 50th on Thursday. We are going to the hockey game and I am SUPER excited. And Im off on Friday. And next week Im going on vacation! WOOT!

I miss all you chatty folks and some of them in Knoxville....

gah!

what the heck!?!! Ive had the caziesst dreams this week. I dont know what the deal is. I wish I could say that I felt it was good thing, but I think it means I am heading to a scary place...

Oh well, Hope you all are well. I am looking forward to seeing you all soon and partying and not worrying... To not worry would be a fun and interesting new feeling.

I wish I could do some theatre... But I dont wanna be anymore tired... what freakin retard.

so yeah...

Im a christian, Im sure most of you know that... but whats with people these days being christian and retarded... ok maybe not these days and maybe its not just christians, but dont make it MORE difficult for me to explain myself by being hateful and malicious based on your loving and gracious "faith"


That probably annoyed someone I love, but I still love them and if they love me they understand it...

Dont have babies with people you barely know and who sincerely are disturbed.

Ive got a secret. Im not gonna post it on the internet.

what the!?!

I just cant believe that I spent the last three hours at a high school graduation party. Thats more time than I spent at MY OWN party and I am really really freaked out by people. They really do ask the same questions OVER AND OVER again and I just cant figure it out... Was it really so long ago that they graduated that they cant remember answering that crap!?!!!

Anyway, I saw X-men, the perfect ending to my crappy friday... Just go see it and dont ask because I really dont wanna talk about it except to say that it is NO WAY to start off the summer blockbuster season...

I am spending the weekend in atlanta with me ma and leavig david at home to make more money so I can spend spend spend!!

Hope to see everyone at Nama on Thursday to celebrate David's birthday!!! Its been hard to convince him that just because he is turning 27 it doesnt mean he's going to die, I guess he thinks he is some kinda musical/artistic genius...

it really is

not having cable has been the best thing ever, but I just cant stop watching crap! I dont know if Im just prone to the "zone" that sucks you into a part of consciousness that prevents the realization that deal or no deal rots your brain or what...

I missed this outlet, so I hope you guys will update your links so that if and when I update this blog, it will be worth it.

I dont ever wanna win the lottery... I dont wanna feel completely alone.